*As I was thinking again about the seeming slowness of my recovery and how no one can see that I am getting better, I heard Holy Spirit softly whisper, “It’s a lie.” Whoa! And I instantly realized that I was once again letting the Enemy sidetrack me by sight, discourage me, and get my focus off Jesus and Truth and Reality. I went back over my improvements from last year and was so grateful and amazed. Rivers of Living Water are flowing through my veins and pushing out all decay. As long as I can keep my spiritual eyes off of what I see and feel in the physical realm, it is obvious to me that physical healing is happening. Carnality must die. Thank You, Best Friend! Forward, march!
*A few days later, I was told that I could stop having pretend faith because it’s either God or it’s not. While my immediate response was to receive the word as it felt good to my flesh (New Testament versus Old, keep pushing and enforcing because you’ve received instead of passively waiting to possibly receive), after praying and asking and testing and checking, I remembered what I wrote above. I can only laugh when I think about all the people I have met who have worked out their healing over time being told that! (I.e. A young lady friend had an autoimmune disorder that left her incapacitated in a hospital. after receiving prayer for four days in a row, her pinky finger moved a tad… that was the beginning of her full restoration.) I am reminded in Hebrews that real faith doesn’t mean that I will see it now but is persisting in believing despite sight (being certain regardless of what I see).
I am feeling extra victorious because the two biggest struggles I mentioned in February — sleep and time dilemma questions — have both dramatically improved!! Because of this, I feel strengthened and rejuvenated… Hallelujah! (Sorry I wasn’t able to keep a timeline for April, too hectic of a month!)